Superiority?

I was asking one of my friend about my blog over the last few days and as we got talking he brought up that he feels I have a superior overtone to my writing. As we got to talking he made it sound like the tone gives a feeling of talking down to others. It's interesting that he felt that way because my blog is first meant as a place for me to grow.

With that information I contacted C to make sure that he did not feel I was talking down to him in my previous post. I was relieved to find out that he didn't.

I was not trying to say anything negative about C. C has been nothing but a wonderful friend and boyfriend to me. We ended up taking a step back because he needed to. He has to do what he needs to in his walk. For a long time I did not understand what he was feeling. From my blog entry on Sunday, I feel like I understand C just a little better. This brought me to a new quandary in my life.

What is the "superior overtone" that my friend brought up?

I have to admit that I feel like the worst Christian at times because I feel that I am constantly searching and working with God to make my relationship stronger. Many times I feel so far away from God that I hurt and cry. Other times I resist giving up my problems to Him because then I can't take credit when things turn out fine.

The Christian walk is not an easy one, because it is so simple. Get it?

I was talking with a friend who spent a lot of time learning about Wicca. She said there are so many rules, beliefs and rituals that she really never felt able to have her own beliefs. It confined her.

Many Christian "religions" seem to have the same restrictions and rules. Many of the rules of religion really come back to living a God-Centered life. The trick is to spend time with God.

2 Corinthians 3:18 KJV

"But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord."

So the more that we spend time with God, the more we behold his glory, the more we see him work in our lives, the more we are changed into His image. When we are changed into God's image, we will keep the "rules" because we want to live a good life and spend more time with Him.

Now I admit, maybe the "superiority" thing comes into play because I don't always share where I am in my walk, but tend to just share what I have realized. I have to say that I am still and will always be working on my communication with God. I am quite hard on myself, because I feel like I should be farther in my walk than I am. But I also realize that I will never get there until well after I meet God in the second Advent. Then many things will become clear, but I will still have many things to learn. Beliefs that I held dear to my heart may be completely wrong and I'll have to learn the truth. Ideas that I did not quite understand will be explained to me. Things that happened in my life will finally make sense when God is able to tell me the reason behind it.

Someone once told me that I seem to struggle a lot in my blog. I did not know what to say at that time. Now I know how to reply. My struggle makes me stronger. It makes my relationship stronger. I'd be scared if my Christian walk was easy.


The Christian walk is not an easy one, because it is so simple.

Just accept God's Gift.

Lord,

I praise you for giving me another day of life. It's hard to get away by yourself and not have interaction with others. Please bless all of my friends and family. We are going through some really hard times right now, but we know that you are in control. Thank you so much for helping me grow. Thanks for being an active part of my life.

I love you,

Brie!