What happens to us?

Hey all,

I've been looking back over my life the last six months and I've been reminded of a lot of things that have happened in my life.

Six months ago, I was on a spiritual quest.

My life was crazy:
Dad was in the hospital with cancer.
I had no job.
Money was extremely tight.
Was on the edge of giving up my apartment.

God came through in the biggest way. Got Dad on a long road toward recovery, Gave me a job. Put me on top of the world in just a couple days.

It's amazing how God can change your down to up in seconds.

But then comfort kicked in. Quickly all the things I worried about were not as bad anymore. I did not consciously decide it, but I slowly walked away from God.

How is it that when things get good, we forget who gave them to us? We forget about the amazing things He has gotten us through. We forget how He picked us up from the rubble and made us safe.

I got a wake up call this past month.

Laid off from my job.
Car got stolen from in front of my apartment.
Gave up my Apartment. (Seems Logical!)
My relationship ended.

All this in about three weeks.

Yet through it God was whispering.

He sent word through my Dad, "You have not blogged for a while."
He sent word through Pastor Kumar, "Haven't see you at church for a bit. Everything okay?"
He sent word through Dad again, relating that his walk has been harder lately because he was not spending as much time with God.

So I'm back. Church has been great! You never realize how much you miss it until you go back.

Two weeks ago I took a day off for some alone time with God. I took my Bible and a journal and pen. I hiked to Annapolis rock and spent the night. Quiet time can be hard. If you've read my past entries you know I was having a hard time with 10 minutes and now I was gone indefinitely.

When I got away my mind was racing. I prayed God would help settle my mind and clear my thoughts.

During that time I came tomany conclusions about myself. One is that my comfort or success as the world sees it varies indirectly with my relationship with God. So the more comfortable I get (extra money, less bills) the less I look toward God.

Matthew 19:23-24 (New International Version)

23Then Jesus said to his disciples, "I tell you the truth, it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. 24Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God."

It seems that the more comfortable we get the less we think we need God. Instead we indulge in the comforts of the world. I don't want my life to keep going down that path. I need a change.

Lord,

Help me to be the person that you want me to be. Help keep me on the path toward You. This world is full of distractions and roadblocks. Many are shiny and get my attention quickly. Help me to see through those distractions and help me to understand what I continuing to keep me back. I praise you for all the good you have brought into my life. Be with my family and friends.

I Love You,

Brie