Ah.. once again another year older. I've never been one that fears or gets upset over birthdays. I guess that is just part of my nature. So on with the rest of my babbling!
What is the difference between being lonely and being alone? Tonight, driving along down the interstate the thought occurred to me that I was lonely. I've been surrounded by my family and friends for the entire weekend and yet I'm lonely. How is it possible for one to be around people, though not just people around people that they truly care about and still be lonely. Is there no real correlation between alone and lonely.
Where does this feeling on loneliness stem from? Is it caused by uneasiness in my heart? Is it caused by my not feeling secure? Is it a good thing? Is it a bad thing?
I can't say that I've felt lonely lately before the last week. But in this time period I've come to a point where I see in myself the loneliness creeping in. What can I do? Where can I turn?
I know that God uses these negative feelings to help us become stronger, and yet I know I can;t see where this one is going. I need advice. I need guidance. I need a clearer picture.
I'm walking once again by my creek, I'm feeling lonely taking each step. I'm not understanding my inner turmoil, and I can't expect others to understand it either.
I'm going around a curve and it's so dark I can't see anything ahead. I can feel the mist of the water near my feet. The current of the creek is swift, rushing, not babbling like it usually does.
I take a few more steps on the slick rocks. Stepping, lonely, but not alone.
Lord,
Please take this feeling of loneliness and do with it what you desire. Use it to make me stronger in you. Help me to see where it is going or give me the faith I need to trust through my blind stumbles.
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This brings to memory the words spoken by the lovely Kate Winslet who played 'Rose' in the classic movie Titanic. She says: "I feel like I'm in the middle of a crowded ballroom, screaming to the top of my lungs and no one notices". The devil is working overtime to steal your joy by distracting you from the prize. The best thing you can do now Brie is guard your hope, your joy, and your victories in Christ.
From my heart, to yours,
Akhenaton
It's funny how you can praise through anything. I still can't see my path, but I feel a guiding hand on my shoulder that I'm praising God for!
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