In The Beginning... was Faith

I'm not sure where it went... is what I've caught myself thinking, over an over again. I know this describes so many different things in life.

I'm not sure where time went! I'm once again turning another year older this next weekend and I think where did the time go?

I'm not sure where my innocence went! I look at things in my life and I think how did I get so far into this!

I'm not sure where my day went! Running from place to place and yet I'm back in bed preparing for tomorrow.

I'm not sure where the pizza went! Well that I can tell you!

I'm not sure where my faith went! Good question.

Matthew 18:3-4
Verse 3 And He said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.
Verse 4 Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

Imagine having that child-like faith again. I never doubted that I was good enough to go to heaven because I knew I was going. Where does that doubt come from? That doubt that seems to so easily keep our faith down. That doubt that keeps us questioning am I good enough? That doubt that keeps us trying to do it all on our own! I can't do it!

Here I am stumbling through my non-path. Even though it is along the brook it still is not a clear path. I keep looking ahead to try and see if it gets any easier, but can't see around the bend. So I keep climbing along through the branches and thorns. I'm giving to you, Lord. I'm giving over to the kid in me, and beginning to look forward to the next adventure.



Lord,

Take my pride, my doubt, my stubbornness and my need for control!

Replace them with your faith, because I can't do it anymore.