Tonight, I went to God once again just as I am. Freely gave God 10 minutes . . . 10 HARD minutes of silence. But God did not come the way I expected. Tonight, I did not feel the presence of God.
Instantly my mind went to try to fix the situation. What am I doing wrong? It the low music to loud? Am I not giving my all? What can I change?
I realize that I can't fix the situation. I can't control it. I can't do anything.
Maybe God was not invited. Maybe I was trying so hard to give God time that I forgot to give him the invitation to come. I thought of a song by Larry Karpenko(My Cousin!):
http://cdbaby.com/mp3lofi/karpenko-06.m3u
"I regret to inform You.
I forgot to invite You.
I forgot to include You.
Then You came to save me."
It's important that we open our hearts and invite God in. Once we invite him in we have to give up control. He was already there. He already came to save us. He was there even though I did not feel him. He was there even though I did not invite him.
Matthew 28:20b
Lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.
Those are the words of Jesus. He is always with us. He is always present. Even though He chose not to reveal His presence to me tonight, He was still there!
What an awesome God we serve.Lord,
Thank you for being with me tonight, even though I did not really invite you. I need you to be more present in my life. I need you to take over and help me to more clearly hear your voice.
Brie!
1 comment:
Don't give up. God can't wait for you to enter into his conversation. I am teaching a class on Christian meditation and contemplation right now at New Hope. Keep giving your time to God. pastor kumar
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