Have you ever been struck by uncontrollable panic? It totally hit me today. I've been working on classes for recertification all summer and today was the final day of class. Now I know that everyone out there would be relieved and wonder why I would panic, but I now have nothing to do for the rest of the summer.
Things that are causing my panic:
No Job: I honestly thought that I would have a job by now. I took a leap of faith and quit my job to take these classes this summer. I assumed that I would be employed by now and yet I still have nothing.
Money: I have a set amount of money to make it through until I start getting paid again.
Boredom: Yes, I admit that I'm already bored. Have been for the last couple weeks. I'm used to having so much to do that I don't have time to do anything and now I have all the time in the world.
So, this is all new to me. I'm used to having everything under control and planned out.
When I look at the things and people around me and the real issues that people are going through I realize that I am overreacting, but my internal anxiety is real.
I once again am on my path, but don't have any clue what is around the next corner.
Again I have to work on my trust. Why do humans have such issues with trust? I know that Hunter and Loki trust that they will get their cat food refilled and litter box changed. They trust that even through I've forgotten in the past.
God's never let me down, why am I having issues trusting that He already has things figured out.
Matthew 6 (NIV)
31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Lord,
I know you already have my summer figured out, but I'm starting to worry and panic. Please comfort me and help me to know that you have it under control. Thank you for all the blessings that you have given me in my life.
Brie!
1 comment:
Martin Luther King, Jr. once said, "dont worry about the staircase, focus on the stair right in front of you"
Ask yourself who is holding the flashlight as you walk up the staircase of your life at this pivotal moment.
If Christ is not holding the flashlight, give it to Him and trust that He will take you to the top.
Your victory, your job, your career is promised! It will come!Just believe!
With unconditional, fraternal love,
Akhenaton
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