Worry

Yesterday, I was able to spend some time with my family. It was my cousins 40th birthday and it was so nice to show up and see her get emotional. I really have come to appreciate my family through these hard times.

I got to have a couple nice long talks with my Aunt Peach and I have to say that the more we talk the more I am at peace with the chaos that is in our lives right now.

Dad had a very hard day yesterday, and after the long drive to Hagerstown, they ended up going back home after a couple hours. I worry about how much this round of Chemo is taking out of him. It seems that a good quality of life is non-existent at this point. He seems to be getting worse off by the week.

I know Mom is getting drained as well. I miss the times that we were able to just get away at the shore and enjoy time. I have to keep focused on the good times and being there for my parents in any way imaginable.

One good thing I saw yesterday, was when my Aunt Peach and I were talking in the kitchen, My brother came in and ended up in the conversation too. I got to see him get a little emotional for an change. It was good to see since he has been more focused on being the strong one in the family. We talked about knowing that God has a plan and reason for what we are going through right now. My Brother brought up that if just one person comes to God because of this it would be worth it. I really felt the Holy Spirit working on my brother.

I know that God works in His own way. His plans are way beyond our comprehension. We just have to keep trusting in that plan.

Lord,

I want to thank you for bringing my family together yesterday. It was hard to see Dad struggle. Please continue to be with him and strengthen him. If it is your will Lord, I ask that you heal him. Be with my family in a special way today. Continue to give us your strength through these hard times. We need you to shine through each of us. I thank you for giving us each new day.

I love You,

Brie!